Fragile Ataraxia
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Level 4: Confidential (poems)
Level 5: Theories (V/ts.89/co)
Level 6: Body Modification
Level 7: Extra Terrestrial Beings
Level 8: Visual Observations
Level 9: Predilection vs. Aversion
Level 10: Musical Psychology
Level 11: Astrological Analysis
Level 12: Escape (Meditation)
Level 13: Ataraxia (freedom)
EXIT: entrance to other worlds.

MY ART

~ Name: Sarah
~ Location: A small town in the middle of nowhere
~ Age: Unknown
~ DOB: July 3rd
~ Height: 5'6
~ Hair: Long, brown
~ Eyes: Light brown/orange

~ Status: ...Brian
~ Tattoos:  6(so far), tribal looking sun with the Chinese symbol for "Zen" between my shoulder blades, a colorful lotus with a Buddhist om cherry blossoms water greywash and a cherry tree on my forearm, a colorful dragonfly on my arm below my elbow, a little mushroom patch on my ankle and the molecular structure of Psilocybin on my neck. Newly added gothique angel wings on my back :)
~Piercings: 8; Labret, right nostril, right industrial, left tragus, tongue, septum, lobes (
retired surface wrist, tongues, eyebrows, lip, naval and many others
)
~ Interests: Art, Nature, music, Painting, photography, guitar, writing, poetry, meditation, Buddhism, reading, psilocybin, tattoos/piercings, concerts/shows, exploring.higher awareness, glass blown art, NATURE, wandering aimlessly and of course just sitting around smoking with some friends and rocking out to good music or driving around.
Future Plans: Dropped out of college after about a month. I just wasnt ready...although I want to go back as an Art major and take classes in the arts and music just to expand my knowledge of it. I have been considering the insane idea of being an art teacher. I also really want to open a tattoo shop and do tattoos and piercings. And of course, more then anything, i would love to just travel the world for about 3 -5 years and experience unfathomable amounts of things. I was going to just disappear to Thailand for a few months... but that was just fantasy. Perhaps i will just disappear to a hippie commune up in Oregon or Washington or Canada.
~Type of music: Everything and anything with meaning or that i can relate to. My song lists go from Tool to Bush to Bob Marley to Ani DiFranco to NIN to Pink Floyd to MOE. Grunge JamBands Rock Alternative Reggae Industrial Indie Ambient Techno Trance
~Favorites:  Tool NIN Moe Nirvana JackJohnson ElliotSmith BobMarley Radiohead APerfectCircle SmashingPumpkins Deftones OurLadyPeace Ani*Difranco Bush Phish
~ First Ear Candy:
Our Lady Peace, Nirvana, Bush, Smashing Pumpkins, Weezer, Radiohead
~Song at the moment: Phish "Waste"
~In Your Stereo: Moe "wormwood", JackJohnson "BetweenDreams", Bonnaroo 2002, RustedRoot Live.

~Musical Gods:
Kurt Cobain, Trent Reznor, Maynard James Keenan, Bob Marley, Thome Yorke, JackJohnson,
~Guitarist:
Adam Jones
~Bassist: PAZ
~Vocalist: Ani Difranco, Maynard J Keenan, Thome Yorke, Raine Maida, Chino
~Band you cant tolerate: Beastie Boys
~Acoustic or Electric: Acoustic Electric :)

* Time:
Night..or day... depending on weather...mood..ect.
* Season: Spring and Fall
* Party or Alone-time: I love both. I certainly need my share of alone time though.
* Color: Heh. What kind of question is that for an artist? I *love* vibrancy. red, orange, yellow, green, blue, purple....greyscale.. heh.
* Animal: I have an obsession with animals. I hold them superior to our pathetic excuse for a species. They're a thousand times more beautiful in every way. I'll pick Cats due to the fact that ive lived with them forever and ive developed a feline nature... and i like their mysterious grace.

* Place:
Nature
* Communication: I hate the phone. I dont like computers much either. Im an in person kind of person.... but in person... im kind of quiet. Ironic. Im better at communicating through writing.
* Weather: Rain thunder lightning. And sunny warm perfect beautiful 65 - 70 spring days....

* Feeling:
Pain and Fear (the following adrenaline is awesome) also peace and tranquility and...... exhiliration.
* Light or Dark:
Darkness (leaves more to be explored and imagined)
*Happiness or Success:
Happiness
* Relationship:
Im more of the serious type. I dont waste time with pointless highschool-esque games.
*Cuddling or Sex: Both have their appealing moments.
*Food: Vegitarian/fruit

* Book:
I like reading books on bands, poetry, meditation, Zen Buddhism, Mental Exploration, Psychology, Philosophy, science and metaphysics. The first book that comes to mind that is really good is Marilyn Mansons "Long Hard Road Out Of Hell" written by Manson himself. Also "The Mission Of Art" by Alex Grey, "Universe in a Nutshell" by Steven Hawkings and "DMT: Spirit Molecule" by Rick Strassmen.
* Movie:  Waking Life, American History X, Girl, Natural Born Killers, Requiem For A Dream, The crow, Strangeland, The Lion King, Nightmare Before Christmas, American Beauty, Basketball Diaries, Girl Interrupted, Fight Club, Momento, Eternal Sunshine for the Spotless Mind.

* Drink
: I usually only drink bottled poland spring water... it is my one helpless addiction. Its rare to see me without a surplus amount of bottles. heh.
* Word: "Ataraxia"~ Freedom from pain, peace, tranquility.
* Time of day: Sunrise and sunset
* Smell: NAG CHAMPA, Roses, Vanilla, Patchouli and... "hemp".

*Flower: Lotus, Roses

* Best friend:
... what is that?
* Boyfriend:
... no no ... must take time after the last experience....
* Anyone in mind: ... there are people that would be fun.... but no. Call me selfish but... just me in mind.
* Feelings or Pleasure: Feelings, im not one who thrives for physical pleasure. I lack much of a sex drive.
Mental pleasure works for me. I was always more interested to the mental side of things anyway.
*
Relationship or "Hooking up": Relationship usually...i cant really have anything unless theres some level of feelings involved. There are exceptions of course. Me and my silly morals...
* Fetish:
Biting, licking, running my fingers around, nibbling, teasing :) Tongues are great things.
* Ideal boyfriend:
TRENT REZNOR. hah. Im extremely picky.. He has to be somewhat capable of having intelligent conversation, artistic, musical, open minded, sweet, funny, understanding, caring, easy to talk to, trustworthy, trusting, loyal and not dramatic or psychotic. We have to have a lot in common and be able to communicate and share thoughts well. He needs to have somewhat obscure/different ways of thinking or else i tend to get bored easily. Hes got to be an artist in some way whether hes a painter, writer or just in artist in the way he thinks. He also needs to be into expanding/exploring other realms and levels of the mind/consciousness  (meditation and psychoactives) because thats a whole other world i love to visit so he should be able to reach that with me. Also, i hate flirts. Always up on every chick trying to make every girl in the room want to fuck them cause apparently im not enough... yeah... I had one of them for way too long... dont need another one.
* Odd Turn Ons: Piercings, tattoos, dreads... corduroy... i love those fucking hippie boys :)
* Definition of Love: I personally dont think theres one certain person for everybody cause people are constantly changing. Its not something that just exists between two people. I know i love somebody when i can trust them 100%, i can talk to them openly, they can talk to me, i never doubt their loyalty, i can be myself around them, have fun with them, i know them as well as i know myself and they know me as well as they know themselves. We tend to melt together and see things from closely related perspectives.

*Thoughts on Sex: 
I need something that has meaning and isnt just for pleasure. The physical pleasure does little for me, so i need the mental part. I cant help it but im one of those sensative type that holds on to things so theres gotta be something to actually hold on to whether its a relationship or really good friendship/connection. Im not the type to go around screwing random guys.

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out again
She's running out
She runs runs runs rrruunnnnssss...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here..
 
.:: rAdiOheAd ::.